The First Year, again

So, when I realized that in the scheme of things, in the scope and sequence of things, in the Great Design and Master Plan of things what time it was, well just imagine! I was both dismayed at not having known what I should have known, what I should have understood from the beginning, what I had never been told–yet which every sign had made so abundantly clear whenever I had kept all three eyes open: it was the the beginning again. It was the first year.

I sat for a while not knowing, and trying to feel. Knowing and trying not to feel. Feeling and wanting and not wanting to know what I now knew and must be responsible for. I felt the unction, the vibration: “work while it is day, for when the night cometh no man can work.” I heard The Voice: “What will ye?”

What will I, indeed, I thought! What will I and what won’t I? I remembered that “whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.” And I looked down at remains of the harvest in front of me, of which I was still partaking. And this being the first year in the cycle, I made some decisions about what I would sow this Time. And I looked inward, both sad that I had found out late and yet relieved that it was not too late to sow something I could look forward to reaping.



I have been quiet on the issue of weight loss for the past couple of weeks. Mainly because I didn’t want to offend any of my fellow weight-loss-journey bloggers who have had (or are still waiting to have) some type of surgery. I can’t reiterate enough how happy I am for all of you; for all of US. I simply decided, as you remember, to take another route. And of course I’m still believing that we will all end up together at the same happy place.

So, meanwhile, the other (more shadowy) reason that I have been quiet is because I wanted to see some positive results on this journey before I started blabbing about what I’m doing. I am so grateful and so relieved to be able to report that for the 3rd week in a row, I have seen more weight loss. Is it DRASTIC weight loss? Heck no. But it’s the kind of 1.5 lb-2 lb loss that keeps you smiling that thanking God.

So what does God have to do with this anyway? Well, for me it just makes since. I have trusted God for everything else in this world. I decided AGAIN (with a little prompting) to give my weight issue to God as well. It’s ironic that what I’m doing is NOTHING NEW and it is COMPLETELY NATURAL and I don’t have to spend any money. Well, except for new clothes, because I am shrinking. Yippee.

You probably have already heard of Gwen Shamblin’s Weigh Down Workshop because it’s been around for at least 2 decades by now. I found out about it through a friend probably about 13 or so years ago, who told me that she had not only used the program to lose 80 pounds, but also to quit smoking. Even I lost about 40 pounds before I just got complacent. I kept the weight off as well as the 4 dress sizes I went down for a few years. It was only later that I began to feel that familiar desperation again about losing weight quickly and I started seeking other alternatives. Indeed if I had never taken that cursed Phentermine, I may have never experienced the devastating ballooning effect that took me higher up the scales than I have ever been before! Oh, well, I won’t keep brooding over horrible mistakes, but will look ahead to a bright future.

Now I will use these principles until I lose the remaining 118 pounds that I want to lose to get to my ideal weight. God will help me. The basics are to simply ONLY eat between the boundaries of hunger and fullness. The End.

Okay, I admit, there is a little more than that. The key is to wait until true, physiological HUNGER manifests itself and then eat a small portion of whatever food you want. When you feel satisfied–not stuffed–you put away the rest of the food or throw it away. You are free to eat again when you feel hunger. BUT WHAT IS THERE TO KEEP A MORBIDLY OBESE PERSON FROM EATING ALL DAY????? Well, that’s where God comes in. Personally, I would say, “That’s where DEVOTION comes in.”

There are millions of people who don’t feel particularly religious or spiritual, so they might initially feel turned off by saying one should turn to God to help with weight loss. I get that. But in all sincerity, human beings have proven for millennia that we are creatures of habit; we know how to commit to something. We ALL adore something, even if it’s our grandkids or our car. We all understand the nature of sacrifice. So, even if we think we are not religious, we actually ARE. The key is to transfer our devotion/love for food over to the Creator. And that’s how we feel empowered and committed to allow nature to do what it does best: heal and restore.

AM I A CHRISTIAN? Well, I’m glad you asked. If you asked me about myself, I’d gladly say yes. But if you asked someone else that about me, they might think I am not. They might see my beliefs, as delivered to me by my beloved Guru, as too liberal, too unorthodox, or absolutely inconsistent with fundamental Christianity. Of course I would beg to differ, because after years of discipleship, I have not seen any incongruence with the teaching of my guru and those of essential Christianity. If anything, my life and my faith have DEEPENED and been greatly enhanced. Most of all, my DEVOTION has gone through the roof, which is the point I am making about my ability to now be successful in implementing the principles of Weigh Down Workshop, a program which is unapologetically “Christian/Bible based.”

May you reach all your weight loss dreams! I’m certainly headed there with you, thanks to this amazing grace I have found.