Okay, so I was surprised to receive the promised letters from my doctor’s office on Saturday, since his scheduler had just called me on Friday at around lunch time. But indeed I did receive a confirmation letter of my appointment with Doctor Adolfo Z. Fernandez on 5/21/15 at 10:00 a.m. They also want me to know that Wake Forest Baptist Health has a new online patient portal, called myWakeHealth, so I need to go ahead establish an account through that.
In the packet, there were two more letters, One was from the office of the nutritionist, Paula Kroustalis Manser with whom I have an appointment on June 16th at 3:00 p.m. The other is from Dr. Jeffrey A. Smith, the psychologist. I guess he just needs to go ahead and put it in writing that I am certified crazy. Okay, just kidding. Anyway, the letter says I need to go ahead and give them a call to schedule my “evaluation,” which will take place over two visits. Gee whiz! If the penalty for cancellation without at least 24 hours’ notice is $100, I cringe to think what the actual fee for the visit it going to be.
And then there is my secret.
Well, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder in 2006 or 2007. So, of course I was prescribed medication that they continued to increase in dosage over time until I was at the highest dosage of 3 meds daily. In another post I will disclose how I came off these meds, but it was NOT under doctor supervision. I have never returned to the medicated lifestyle and have survived and thrived these 7 years since that nightmarish time of my life. Do I still notice the effects of the chemical imbalance they told me I had years ago? Well, I’d be outright lying if I said I never notice. The point is that I believe I have learned to cope without medication. And I have not killed myself, nor anyone else in the process, so I’m good, right?
I notice that in the patient health assessment, they ask you about medical conditions like depression. Every time I see that word I pause and I don’t know what I should do. Do I get depressed sometimes? Heck yeah, but it’s not the black engulfing pit that I used to fall into and become debilitated for days at a time. So, I tend to simply skip over that question on the forms. But I have this sneaking feeling that I won’t be able to avoid this type of question with the shrink. What am I going to do? If I tell about my previous diagnosis will that make me NOT a good candidate for this surgery? If I admit that I still struggle from time to time with emotional swings, will someone try to convince me to take medication again?
At any rate, this process is now in full swing so it’s time for me to get down to business, filling out papers and keeping appointments…